I had the unpleasant task of visiting my elder brother , 86, who was hospitalised for a Fall.
Unpleasant because , to see one who had been vigorous, fiercely independent and forever dynamic bedridden depending on others for basic functions.
To see human beings dependant on others is pathetic.
And the blind trust one has to have on others on such situations.
One is proud, independant, does not bother others or bothers about others when one is healthy and/or young.
When one falls sick or advances in age when one can not even command his senses, pitiable.
People might have money, contacts.
Yet one needs people at these times.
One must also remember that those who assist, be it children or friends, that they have their commitments, offices/businesses to attend to, families to look after……
As one lies helplessly, awaiting others to come to help….
Humiliating and painful.
Yet you can do nothing.
If the disease is severe and chances of revival are remote, horrible!
One can not choose his time of Death.
What does one need towards the end of his life?
He should not lie sick,
He should not have self reproach and the
End should be swift and painless.
.நோயுற்று அடராமல் நொந்து மனம் வாடாமல் பாயிற் கிடவாமல் பாவியேன் காயத் தை ஓர் நொடிக்குள் நீக்கி என்னை ஒன் போருர் ஐயா நின் சீரடிக்கீழ் வைப்பாய் தெரிந்து’
‘சென்னை போரூர் பா மாலையில் தவத்திரு சிதம்பர சுவாமிகள் தி ருவாய் மலர்ந்து அருளியது.
Addressed to Lord Subrahmanya at Porur.
Let me be not struck by disease,
Nor do I suffer by Self reproach,
Ensure Lord Subrahmanya that You ensure I attain Your Feet swiftly, without pain.
-Chidambara Swamigal, Porur Paamaalai.